never expect!

expect too much would only make us more disapointed in the end

so i learn not to expect anything, it's impossible i know but i'll try to be

so my life will be so much happier.

i know what i want, is not always what i can get

but i get what i need :)

GOD had already arranged everything for me. i believe HE will lead me to the best way

i am thankful! ♥♥

2012 first blog

it has been a year i nver update my blog. because i have no time n i don't know what should i say

it's too much, too much things that i can't describe just by words.

too many things happen. too many thoughts across my mind

maybe same time as now, last year, everything were just so different

i don't know where should i start to talk

i need someone come approach me , hugs me n said everything will be okey.

someone who will totally understand me, who will accept me for who i am

just a ordinary girl i am. a girl who will make mistake but would realized, apologized n changed

a girl who is always try to be happy, no regret, strong enough.

i am so tired, but i always know that i am stronger than i expected.

never regret my life, bcause i know there's still so much ppl want my life, envy my life.

whatever, i am grateful. i love mylife

who's life nver have problem ??? noone :)

it will get better one day, FOR SURE.

today ..

sad today

everything seems have changed

it's longer like before

what's wrong ? is there any misunderstood between us ?

this feels is so sucked

calmdown n believed all of that just temporary. it's going to end up soon :D

Ten rules for being human

GIRLS LANGUAGE

GIRLS LANGUAGE:

• When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.
• When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you, grab her and don`t let go.
• When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough, kiss her and tell her you love her.
• When she`s quiet, ask her what`s wrong.
• When she ignores you,give her your attention.
• When she pulls away, pull her back.
• When you see her at her worst, tell her she`s beautiful.
• When you see her start crying, just hold her and don`t say a word.
• When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.
• When she`s scared, protect her and make her feel safe with you.
• When she steals your favorite hoodie, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.
• When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.
• When she doesn`t answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.
• When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up.
• When she says that she loves you,she really does more than you can understand.
• When she grabs at your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.
• When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.
• When she tells you a secret,keep it safe and untold.
• When she looks at you in your eyes, don`t look away until she does.
• When she says it`s over, she still wants you to be hers.

“When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you, grab her and don`t let go.”

my heart

who knows the pain inside my heart

who knows how many problem i passed it myself

who knows my feeling ?

some words is bothering my mind till now

hurtful ~

honestly, my boyfriend was gangster before

he liked to drinks, fight, smoke, n many more

but now i really can see

he smoke lesser, no fighting, no drinks

people may think i am stupid to be with him

i just don't really understand . is it because his past ?

or now he still do something that make me disappointed. can somebody tell me the truth ?

i just don't want to be lied and i also don't want to be a person that believed without proved

i know people who told me is for my own good. i just can't understand is there any proved that he really lied me n do that ? i need it because i hate to have that feeling. i want to trust him but i scared i would be hurt, i want to believed what other people said but it has no proved so it's unfair for me n him. so my position is between should or not

but when i asked, nobody tell me where the words come from and ask me not to think that matter again

saying is easy, but who know how hard to forget it

i just wish i could like other girl who don't care what people said

swear,i really want

sometimes i really scared to believe a person that would hurt me, will he ?

he's nice n care towards me, he put his time to work n me

all i want, he'll try to make it for me. n he also not a guy that unfilial to his parents

just because sometimes his bad tempered n he is a very jealousy n sensitive person

and i am a stubborn person

he like to say he's not as important as my friend

that's why we often quarrel

not i am at his side. all i said is truth.

i said to him a relationship need Trust

but i realized i also not trust him because of some matter

i can see his effort. but i just scared it's all a fake
i really want to give up sometimes but is it worthy ? 
so so tired ........

i'm too stupid to worry so many things. i hate to pretend like nothing

it's toughful, i wonder who can understand my feeling now

i really feel better after i type it down all

how great if i can ask GOD some question about him

did he ever lied me or will he lie me ?

did he really love me ?

will he make me disappointed ?

does he really like what people said ?
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i know GOD can't answer me, just the time prove everything </3

simply life

oh blogger

it has been a time i didn't update my blog

i can't type all of my thought on here

there's so so so many things n they're undescribeable

i told myself to not think too much about problem n some stupid matter

it's better to live simply without worries

but i admit sometimes i can't , it's not as easy as we say

i feel blessed to myself when i see some poorer n broken family

as a human, who nver feel satisfied is who nver know what the happiness is

but not mean that we no need to improve ourselves too

p.s we should feel blessed to our life n cherish the people beside us before we regret :)