Before I Fall in Love by Coco Lee (with Lyrics)

thanks n sorry `

thanks'

thanks for evrything that u did for me

thanks for ur special gift that u did it to me, i like it very much

thanks for ur support when i am down

thanks for ur comfort when i am sad

thanks for ur advice if i did something wrong

thanks for ur sincerely

thanks for u touching words

thanks for ur care

thanks for evrything ! i appreciate it a lot

but sorry of my attitude

there's a lot of words that i want to say

but i don't know how to start

actually i always afraid to face the reality, i afraid i will hurt u

i am down n stress ~ will u forgive me

to someone

f*cking life

the colour of my life has disappeared

feel that only black n white

i am tired

tired of evrything

i afraid i couldn't stand those day anymore

i need a long long holiday to refresh. a lot of problem that make me almost crazy :(

i need a person who fully understand me.

please god ! i must strong ~ fiuh .. stress

it's hard to describe my feeling now

sometimes i hate ppl asking too much

please ignore me when i want to be alone

please accompany me when i feel lonely

i just want to be silent when i was serious

i am super down now

i want my school life

i really need a lot of friends to accompany me, sharing with me,

that's blog

QING-MONSTER.BLOGSPOT.COM

Not a nice blog, still far if compare to those pro.blogger

Just a place for me to share

A bottle for me to save my memory

Because I know my brain can’t save those memories in detail unless I type in on here :)

So that even few years passed, I still can read n remind how fun, how sad, how stress, how enjoy the moment it is till I can describe it as text n type it on my blog

N the last maybe also can let me have the chance to improve my English

Ahahha. Even just a poor English, but thanks to some of u who willing to sacrifice ur time to read it :)

I’d love to update but sometimes I got no inspiration although I want to share a lot on my blog

But don’t know why while I wanted to type, I was blank~ whaahha

i'm just using my own way, can't i?

i can't sleep nowww

last night i purposely drink a cup of coffeemix

really makes me don't feel sleepy. ahahah

but i enjoy ~

maybe bcause of this, i can feel the time is slower

damn silly , right ? absolutely yess :)

sometimes reallity is so cruel

i afraid to face itt. but i still can't avoid .

so just let it be ...

i just using my own way to make me feel better

just like spending money to get the things that i want to make me feel satiesfied

listening my favorite music repeatedly (relaxing)

asking my friends accompany me to hang out

or maybe just chatting with some humoris person to make me laugh

i hate being forbidden by ppl

sorry, i know it's for my own good. but i just like using my own way to make myself feel better

please undrestand mee, I NEED TO REFRESHH !!!

i am stress, depressed, headacheeeee ...

who undrestand mee ~ who know ? who able to help mee ?

who ? who ?? :(

i am silly enough

i think that if we treat ppl well, they'll treat us the same way as we did too .

but .....

some of them really don't realize . shitttt ....

so i promised to myself starting todayyy .. i don't want to be that "silly girl" again

won't trust a person easily

there's got many liar in this world, THIS CRUEL WORLD

a liar that lying without wink their eyes is the most dangerr

HELL ~

Never Had A Dream Come True lyrics

Ooh...

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind

One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time

There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)

How it could be now or neither been (or neither been)

All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus

I never had a dream come true

Till that day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

You'll always be my baby

I never found the words to say

You're the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where love takes me to

A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time

Amd tomorrow can never be

'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind

There's no use looking back or wondering

How it should be now or neither been (or neither been)

Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus

You'll always be the dream that fills my head

(Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)

You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget)

There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)

Because love is a strange and funny thing

No matter how I try and try

I just can't say goodbye

No no no no

Chorus

A part of me will always be with you...

love this songg !

the period before i work

dear blog ♥

sorry i got no time to update youuu. i am sure that u're already damn miss me :p

there's a good news

"i've working nw." i work at BCA

some customer said BCA stands for "Bank Capek Antri" hahahaa. they're so brilliant ~

if i was not wrong , at 16th july i delivered my application to the bank

n 19th i went thre for the test. there're 4 ppl included me when having the test

concidencely 2 of them was my friend.

21st i was asked to go to interview. that time only 3 of us were selected

n at the evening i was asked to medical check up

only me who was asked to medical check up

happy n unbelieveable :) :)

ok then.at 22nd  after medical check up. the result  was fine

n i'm asked to go to the bank again

the person at personalia said "juli, trainingnya besok yahh. ke medan"

what the hell ~

i haven's prepared at all. I AM SHOCKED !

but what else can i do. i've no choice

WAJIB TRAINING SEBELUM KERJA !!!

fiuuhh. so i rushed to buy my needs.

but it's fun. i knew a lot of new friends who came from different cities

two times training.

its over than half months times i training at Medan

first training from 23rd july - 1st august

second training from 13rd august - 22 august

we training at 8a.m n finish at 4.30p.m

10.00 - 10.15a.m coffee break

12:00 - 1:00p.m lunch

03.00 - 3.15p.m coffee break

unable to describe how fun the moment it is !

TEN THUMBS UP !!!! :)

first it's very tough for me. i think i can't stand anymore to work as a teller

maybe it's my first job so i still unaccustomed

but after this few weeks, i feel that i've improved even not a lot

everything must learn. as long as we intend

nothing is impossible ~ now i believe

so i will hold out. jiayou2 :)

They're human, n i am a human also

They can , of coursee i can !!! ~

i am not student anymore !!! its fact

see ! just few months passed

i already damn miss my classmate, my class, my uniform n many more

oh noo.. i really won't have the chance to wear my sweet uniform again

but its mean that i'm going to be a worker

I AM NOT STUDENT ANYMORE !! it's fact, i know that :)

damn bored now . nothin' to do everyday

what else can i do except online, watching, sms-ing, hang-out ??? :(

havn't got a job yet (still process of searching)

most of the company want the experience worker

n then i am not

i am 17. they said too young

mostly accounting is easier to find the job n im not accounting. :(

actually its not my fault . LOL

but not only me, many of my friends is in the same situation with me.

want to find a suitable job is not easy now ~ need times . haha

but thanks a lot to some of my friends are willing to help me

♥

pleaseeee !!!!

please don't near me if u have motive.

please don't pretend to be a good person if u're not

i am not as stupid as u thought !

I HATE IT !!

the hundred times i help, i nver think to get any benefits from u

but once i reject to help, i think u would forget the times when i help youu

maybe it's just called "HUMAN"

@.@

argghhhhhh ...

this matter really make me crazy

but anyway

i must face the reality

face ittt !!! :)

yess

REMEMBER !

all matter have the solution

hwahwhaaha

browsing song's lyrics

hahah

this few days I'd like to browse some English song's lyrics

its helpful for me

can make me improve my English's pronouncation n also let me understand all the meaning of the song

because some song's lyrics is difficult to be heard when the singer sings

 in a simple way to describe is "catch no ball"

hyahahahha

"Google" is soooo useful

just type down what i want to find, its appear directly

nice :D

♥

first time job interview XD

yiihhhaaaaaaa !!!

today is my first time to interview a job

yesterday i just delivered my application to the bank panin

n today i was asked to test n interview

fortunately i was not too late

THANKS GOD :D

was i nervous ??? of course . aahhha

my first time leL :p

in the early morning the weather's not support

raining.raining ~ huff . so i get caught in rain

there was 10over of ppl who applied at there

so i think i got a lot of competitor . hhaha

but i quite satisfied with my performance today

even i was too nervous (normal, is it?) :D

there's three subjects that i test just now

psychology test, mathematics. and english

its difficult.

especially the mathematics, not more than five questions i can

beside it, i did it without reading questions. was i great ? wkakka

but whether I'd accepted or not. it's still depends on the company

as long as i have tried my best

^,^

the happiest thing because

i got an experience already ♥

go backk !!! ♥

1a.m, n yet i still at here updating my blog

hihhii

tomorrow is going back liiao

damn miss my bed already

but can't bear leaving here too. will miss my crazy cousin, cherrin very much

>.<

just now shop with her until 9p.m

went to plaza sing, bugis then punggol plaza

feel abit tiring ~

fiiuhh ~ but i was damn happy n satisfied today :]

tmrrw will bring a lot of stuff back

fortunately go back with my uncle n his wife

so automatically they will help me to carry it ♥

 okeyy , time to sleep

hve to wake up earlier tmrrw ..

nitee ~ :)

@.@

goshh !! almost 2month i didn't update my blog

thr've many things i want to say

but lazy to type it down

haiis

nw i'm at my yi2'sd house, sg

waiting cherrin lau, my damn funny cousin come bcak frm her schl

then accompany me hang-out

BUGISS STREET !!!

although i alrdy went thre twice but i stil wanna go

bcause thre've a lot of things i hven't buy . hyhahaha

chamm~ T.T

maybe 3rd or 4th i am going back to indonesia

then time to find the job !!!

my lawyer's day alrdy going to end

fiiuhh fiiuhh

so quick

i am no longer a student anymore

oh nuoooo !! working working

headache when i think it @.@

jiayoouu ba !!

soon or late this day will come too :)

yess. i will be a lawyer !!! :p

lawyer --> pengacara

pengacara stands for

"pengangguran banyak acara"

really nice. hahahaa

funny ~ my friend taught me last night :p

LMAO when i knew what he meant

bcause i'll have a lot of activiteis after finishing my school's exam

busy of gathering, playing, fun-ing :)

no more study

then no working for a while

like lawyer , ritee ?? :p

but soon or later i'll quit this job

:D

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

hott pinkkk ♥

amazing !!!

feel that I've fall in love with Hot pink

a lovely colour, isn't it ?

i love purple brfore

but don't know why , now when i see the purple n hot pink stuff . i prefer the hot pink one

i know well about myself

i used to get bored with a thing easily

maybe i've change my favourite colour

i more like hot pink than purple

purple ! sorry bcause u're in 2nd nw :p

wondering when i can get this camera ~ nice colour

♥ 

chiiioo , rite ? hihiih

up to u ??

i hate when i'm asking a opinion of a person then he/she reply me "up to you lho"

gggrrrr .. i am doubtful so i ask them

i want them to give me their opinion too

"up to you"

it is same that no answerr !!!!

whahha ~

love my current life

it've been a time i didn't update my blog . miss miss miss :D

because of my stupid inet couldn't work n my computer got viruses Y.Y

can't describe how boring i am without my PC

hiks

then the uan on 22th passed smoothly :)

just wait for the result on 26th april

i already tried my best to study n cheating . wakwkak :p

wondering i will pass or not

but i always confidently said "i'll pass"

hahaa

now only wait for the uas

no need to stress-ing for study

bcause i know my teacher will let all of us pass . hihih

after that i totally free already

n then waiting for the agro trip

all of my classmates will go

will have a unforgettable n memorable moment for me

 :)

 love my current life

♥

13th march 2010

huhu, why video can't upload to my blogg !!! really 87 ~ bcause the video is far memorable than this

this photo was taken by yanto

took place at ocean ktv

in this photo (ser , me, gav, emi, er, suryani, liana, vera, junita)
there has dendy , yanto, kriiz, dustin also
but suryani, liana , vera n junita went back first

didn't know where was yul going. only her not in this photo , so pity :((

i even forgot to dinner that time. but strangely i didn't feel hungry :p maybe over happy

i went there at 9pm (because i went to the test first) and arrived home at 11pm. but still have two bodyguards (yanto n kriz) accompany me to go back . HAHAHA ~ thanks actually :)

first i didn't know they would go to ocean. when yul told me that they're in ocean , really made me very excited n wanted to go there ASAP :)

but i still at STTI accompany nov n vya waiting their report whether they're accepted or not

pitiful, Nov's mother forbid her to go to ktv bcause she said its not a good a place

not really i think . haiis ~ so after brought her back i went to ocean to find them

really fun when arrived there. when some of them were singing, we have time to chat a lot. talked about the graduation, everyone felt very upset n can't bear to separate. now i just realize that how much i need them.

can't imagine how my life without them :(

kenapaa suatu pertemuan mestii ada perpisahan !!! huhuh

regret why i didn't appreciate it for the time being

yahh, but not too late la . still have time :D

even PJ2 is the class that difficult to handle in teacher's eyes

but i still feel so proud to have the classmates like them. love u all :*

always the best class for me ^.^

we're ever punished n scolded together

i like the cohesive of my class

even sometimes would hve some conflict, misundrestood, quarell or whatever

but its just a small experiment for me. because of this, really made us closer than before n understandable what is right n what is wrong

hope our junior also have the spirit like this !!

yahhh i agree what had yuli said

don't know what to do after finish study

when school time, wake up-having breakfast-take a shower then go to school already can meet a lot of friends

although sometimes we're stress-ing about exam n dislike the teacher

but its far different with working time u knoww :(

have to listen to the boss n must patient to face it

haiiss ~

yesterday i slept at almost 2am

i think a lot about the separation

yuli sent a messages with 6pages long to me

she apologized to me. said sorry to me

really touching when i read it until didn't know want to reply her what that time

ser also sent me the messages about apologize to what she had done

actually no need

because i also had made a lot of mistake to them before

really soorrryy !!!

human may make mistake. so try to forgive n forget ^^

*make the time slowerr pleassee, god :(

i still want to be a student who have a lot of friends that always give me joy

comfort me when i am sad

advice me when i do somthing wrong

help me when i have problems

accompany me when i am alone

make me laugh when i am bad mood

i ♥ them

me !!!

just because sometimes i am quiet doesn't mean i don't have anything to say. i judge people too easily from my first impressions. i interest about photograph. I'd rather look immature and have fun then don't care what other people think. sometimes I'm really confident, other times i feel insecure. my friends mean everything to me, but sometimes i just want to be alone. i like freedom. i envy people who can fit in so easily without trying. i am opinionated & stubborn, but i am loyal, sincere n caring too :p ~ i hate when people make me feel guilty to get their way. I'll always be here to listen the problems. i am more afraid of growing up than anything else :)

3 stages of life :)

3 stages of life :

♥ TEENS. You have all the time n energy but don't have money
♥ WORKERS. You have the money n energy but no time
♥ OLDIES. You have all the times n money but no more energy

Lessons :

Enjoy life n all the things u have at the moment because u can't have everything all at once

 

♥♥♥♥

fun :)

today .... eh no no
count as yesterday already :p
i hanged-out with Lisa, my cousin.

she cme back from sg till 15th . bcoz nw she is study at one of the university in sg
she is a adorable, brave, smart n friendly girl for me :p

we're not so close before

but when we had the tuition in the same place (DDTC)

doing the proposal together, and she recommended me to be a TIENS member(her downline) then also went to the seminar together ~
so bcme closer

now sometimes she come back , we would hang-out :)
yesterday i went to fetch her, bcoz she didn't know my new house

we went to delight bistro cafe then took some pic at there

narsis.narsis-ing . she even brought her camera :D

then we chit.chat for a while

she told me about her friends

whoaa !! a lot of things

so i am lazy to type at here :D

those incident not just happens in TV but fact also

so ppl is unbelieveable nw :)

yeahh anyway

its a fun day for me 

refreshing :))

 

one of the picture that we took :)

 

because i am a human !!!

i still need to rest

i want a lot of freedom

i can't get everything that i want !

i have many weakness but still have strength

i am imperfect cause i am a human :)

my mood may

happy, sad , angry, shy,

crazy, or even grunt

 but i can't act ~

i also need the courage

the courage to make me

--more confident

--more independent

--braver

--stop to be a loser

--stronger

i also will fear

*fear of losing, *fear to be left

*fear of harmful things , *fear to make a big mistake

 

but i have my own ability

i can't follow ppl's strength

 so i am who i am . dislike to act

 i am ordinary, just a simple human

like to do what i want

eat what i like

wear what i love

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whoaa !! Y.Y

really can't understand what is in her mind now ??

did we make any mistake ?
please don't show ur glum face !!!
since we don't have much time to gathering like now, appreciate it please

only left not more than 2 month liao
of course now we promise to not lost contact after graduate
but who knows our future ??
what will we be ?? will we gathering again ??

this two months mean a lot to me

probably i will very miss my school, miss my friends , miss my time when we're crazy-ing, miss my uniform, miss the cohesive of my classmate, and many more !!

can't avoid ~~ :(

:) :) really tired ~
can't avoid this Monday
whatever condition, still must face it !!!!!
may god bless me ~ smoothly on this coming Monday till Wednesday . i must pass it !!
this is the last year of my school's year
will really really miss this moment one day

don't want to be grow up forever but its impossible
will be a lady one day

will be an adult one day

and will be old one day :(
its all will be happen ... whoever can't AVOID it ~

time time time ~

feel like it is as quick as we blink our eyes

really can't feel now i am going to graduate already

so fast .... fiiuhhh ~

my proposal almost done :D

yeahh !!! my school's proposal almost done liiaoo
thanks a lot to those ppl who willing to help me worrr :D
i do nothing . so my job was just typiing
:)
but a bit tired too ~
come back home , hven't take bath n lunch
i started doing already
sat infront of my computer for hours already
coz so many of my friends hve done it =,=
i don't want to be the lastttt !!!!!
o.o
hyahahaa

cute wallpaper **

DAMN CUTE :D

lyke to collect those cute wallpaper
:D

where is happiness ??? ♥

most of my friends got their boy.boy already
then i am still in a single status
my friend said "qiing, go to find one lhaa"
haiis . it's not necesary for me
why say find ? isn't this feeling come naturally ?
i prefer to get know a person very well first
its not a big deal if don't have alaoo mhaa, rite rite ??
(try to comfort myself) :p
ppl said "being loved is more XINGFU than loving ppl"
i STRONGLY AGREE with this aa
but with a person whom u don't really love
not call "XINGFU" already i think :)
NYIAHAHA** :D laugh evilly

thenn ..
of course sometimes i will feel not close like before with my friends
most of their time put on their bf so we become rarely hang out except some important event
its ok , i used to it :D
be a good girl ~ stay at home n then online n online ♥

:D

yeah ! ♥
it's one of the photo when my pioce's wedding
i became her pan niang ~ this was my first time
two days ago i borrowed my cousin's flash disk
n copy all the photo on 16th January ~
this photo was taken when i didn't notice at all. so i thought its natural enough,
then i edit a bit the effect by "meitu" :)

CNY is very busy ~
Always updated my blog the day after the event. haiis :) but today seems very boring. dunno where to go, n yet my friends hven't asked me out. so just stay at home waiting some cousins n friends come to paeciia lol ^^ ♥

yaa ♫ ~ my two sister :)

i admit i am damn narsiis :D
i take this after make up myself (bfore went out)
♥

damn cute ♥ valentine day

Well! I was tricked by my friend yesterday:p ♥

After I came back from my grandma'’s house, my mum said yuli (my bestfriend) gave me something. First the box was packed neatly. My sister n I opened it. Open n open ~ still a newspaper layer. Then got a shoe box liao , I opened it but still a torn newspaper. Fortunately I didn'’t throw it bcoz I found the ferrero rocher inside. Then I sms her "bokhuang, u throw the rubbish to my house ah. Fortunately inside got chocolate :)"” but the word “"kamsia”" I never forget to say :p ♥

(see this photo)♥

i take this pic after opened it

i really really ♥ that moment ^^
05.02.10
vya's bdae . take place on KFC