today ..

sad today

everything seems have changed

it's longer like before

what's wrong ? is there any misunderstood between us ?

this feels is so sucked

calmdown n believed all of that just temporary. it's going to end up soon :D

Ten rules for being human

GIRLS LANGUAGE

GIRLS LANGUAGE:

• When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.
• When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you, grab her and don`t let go.
• When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough, kiss her and tell her you love her.
• When she`s quiet, ask her what`s wrong.
• When she ignores you,give her your attention.
• When she pulls away, pull her back.
• When you see her at her worst, tell her she`s beautiful.
• When you see her start crying, just hold her and don`t say a word.
• When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.
• When she`s scared, protect her and make her feel safe with you.
• When she steals your favorite hoodie, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.
• When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.
• When she doesn`t answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.
• When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up.
• When she says that she loves you,she really does more than you can understand.
• When she grabs at your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.
• When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.
• When she tells you a secret,keep it safe and untold.
• When she looks at you in your eyes, don`t look away until she does.
• When she says it`s over, she still wants you to be hers.

“When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you, grab her and don`t let go.”

my heart

who knows the pain inside my heart

who knows how many problem i passed it myself

who knows my feeling ?

some words is bothering my mind till now

hurtful ~

honestly, my boyfriend was gangster before

he liked to drinks, fight, smoke, n many more

but now i really can see

he smoke lesser, no fighting, no drinks

people may think i am stupid to be with him

i just don't really understand . is it because his past ?

or now he still do something that make me disappointed. can somebody tell me the truth ?

i just don't want to be lied and i also don't want to be a person that believed without proved

i know people who told me is for my own good. i just can't understand is there any proved that he really lied me n do that ? i need it because i hate to have that feeling. i want to trust him but i scared i would be hurt, i want to believed what other people said but it has no proved so it's unfair for me n him. so my position is between should or not

but when i asked, nobody tell me where the words come from and ask me not to think that matter again

saying is easy, but who know how hard to forget it

i just wish i could like other girl who don't care what people said

swear,i really want

sometimes i really scared to believe a person that would hurt me, will he ?

he's nice n care towards me, he put his time to work n me

all i want, he'll try to make it for me. n he also not a guy that unfilial to his parents

just because sometimes his bad tempered n he is a very jealousy n sensitive person

and i am a stubborn person

he like to say he's not as important as my friend

that's why we often quarrel

not i am at his side. all i said is truth.

i said to him a relationship need Trust

but i realized i also not trust him because of some matter

i can see his effort. but i just scared it's all a fake
i really want to give up sometimes but is it worthy ? 
so so tired ........

i'm too stupid to worry so many things. i hate to pretend like nothing

it's toughful, i wonder who can understand my feeling now

i really feel better after i type it down all

how great if i can ask GOD some question about him

did he ever lied me or will he lie me ?

did he really love me ?

will he make me disappointed ?

does he really like what people said ?
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i know GOD can't answer me, just the time prove everything </3