today ..

sad today

everything seems have changed

it's longer like before

what's wrong ? is there any misunderstood between us ?

this feels is so sucked

calmdown n believed all of that just temporary. it's going to end up soon :D

Ten rules for being human

GIRLS LANGUAGE

GIRLS LANGUAGE:

• When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.
• When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you, grab her and don`t let go.
• When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough, kiss her and tell her you love her.
• When she`s quiet, ask her what`s wrong.
• When she ignores you,give her your attention.
• When she pulls away, pull her back.
• When you see her at her worst, tell her she`s beautiful.
• When you see her start crying, just hold her and don`t say a word.
• When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.
• When she`s scared, protect her and make her feel safe with you.
• When she steals your favorite hoodie, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.
• When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.
• When she doesn`t answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.
• When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up.
• When she says that she loves you,she really does more than you can understand.
• When she grabs at your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.
• When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.
• When she tells you a secret,keep it safe and untold.
• When she looks at you in your eyes, don`t look away until she does.
• When she says it`s over, she still wants you to be hers.

“When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you, grab her and don`t let go.”

my heart

who knows the pain inside my heart

who knows how many problem i passed it myself

who knows my feeling ?

some words is bothering my mind till now

hurtful ~

honestly, my boyfriend was gangster before

he liked to drinks, fight, smoke, n many more

but now i really can see

he smoke lesser, no fighting, no drinks

people may think i am stupid to be with him

i just don't really understand . is it because his past ?

or now he still do something that make me disappointed. can somebody tell me the truth ?

i just don't want to be lied and i also don't want to be a person that believed without proved

i know people who told me is for my own good. i just can't understand is there any proved that he really lied me n do that ? i need it because i hate to have that feeling. i want to trust him but i scared i would be hurt, i want to believed what other people said but it has no proved so it's unfair for me n him. so my position is between should or not

but when i asked, nobody tell me where the words come from and ask me not to think that matter again

saying is easy, but who know how hard to forget it

i just wish i could like other girl who don't care what people said

swear,i really want

sometimes i really scared to believe a person that would hurt me, will he ?

he's nice n care towards me, he put his time to work n me

all i want, he'll try to make it for me. n he also not a guy that unfilial to his parents

just because sometimes his bad tempered n he is a very jealousy n sensitive person

and i am a stubborn person

he like to say he's not as important as my friend

that's why we often quarrel

not i am at his side. all i said is truth.

i said to him a relationship need Trust

but i realized i also not trust him because of some matter

i can see his effort. but i just scared it's all a fake
i really want to give up sometimes but is it worthy ? 
so so tired ........

i'm too stupid to worry so many things. i hate to pretend like nothing

it's toughful, i wonder who can understand my feeling now

i really feel better after i type it down all

how great if i can ask GOD some question about him

did he ever lied me or will he lie me ?

did he really love me ?

will he make me disappointed ?

does he really like what people said ?
 \

i know GOD can't answer me, just the time prove everything </3

simply life

oh blogger

it has been a time i didn't update my blog

i can't type all of my thought on here

there's so so so many things n they're undescribeable

i told myself to not think too much about problem n some stupid matter

it's better to live simply without worries

but i admit sometimes i can't , it's not as easy as we say

i feel blessed to myself when i see some poorer n broken family

as a human, who nver feel satisfied is who nver know what the happiness is

but not mean that we no need to improve ourselves too

p.s we should feel blessed to our life n cherish the people beside us before we regret :)

life :)

life is so complicated, it's unpredictable

no one know what will happen tomorrow

cherish what we have before we lost it

we have it today not mean that we'll have it forever

today we might be very closed, tomorrow we may look like a stranger

weird but it's fact :)

just believe tomorrow will be better than today

sometimes our life is in our own hand 

how we handle it, so how the result it is

no one hope something bad happens to them in the coming times

but no one can't escape if it's really do

praying for our beloved GOD.

lead the best way for us, help the one who really needs help.

solve problem

Get all the facts.
Describe the problem in detail.
List all the possible solutions.
List the advantages and disadvantages of each.
Detail what you will do.
Follow through.

new website

yeahh, i almost forget ♥
visit http://qiingtan.onsugar.com/
Dont think anyone reads this blog anyways, but just to inform you politely
but i am not shifting, just think that it's a cute website :)

:(

hi !! i am here again

i can't sleep now :( ~

what should i do ?? feel that i am nothing now

can i back to my school life ?that's idiot question

but i really miss my school life, i miss the day without worry

i miss those feel.

why human would grown up n at the end should die

what it means ?

can a person live without problem ?? can ??

huh, i really want to run out from this fact

i hate pressure

i choose to be quiet rather than talk to much, bcause i know how the way i say is just the same

problem, can u run away from me. i beg u :(

from relationship problem, education problem, n job problem

stopp pleasee

insane soon !

badmood ..............................

nag nag nag

have u enough ????? n can u stop ?

yah, for my own good, but this not i want

can u use some soft way to say n understand my feeling now

wanna cry out loud but i bear

i hate to be weak infront of her

do u realized ? the more u nag, the more depressed i feel

ENOUGH !!!

wo ze ji you fen chun !

i am not useless

this is just temporary , believe  me .

i don't know where to share my feeling except here, blog ❤
but u never respond me

Smoke

HAHAHA

i should show it to my buddies
♥
i don't undrestand why they know smoking is not good for health but they still want to. hais

kinds of person

this worlds have millions kind of people. i am sure there's no one perfect included me :)

each of us have our own strength n weakness. everyone automatically will judge a person from the first sight. so it's the reason why when first we meet the important ppl (just like interview) we should wear more politely.

but it doesn't mean that we should act. hahah

i do not dare to fully believe anyone. i damn hate people lying me. if they do something wrong, i prefer them to be honest in order to lie me because afraid me to get angry. i will more angry after i discovered they lied me

i also hate the person who are hypocrite. hell ~ gonna slap that kind of person !! HAHA ..

some people really got nothing to do, others matter always be their topic to talk about, hais. feel pity to them, they are tooooo BOSECO !!!!

underage =.=

jobless ! fiuh, xian with this life

nver expect that i was quit on December . what reason do u know ? it is ridiculous. they said i am underage. haven't reach 18th. whathe fuck !! i am so sad after hear that.

yess, when i entered there, at july. i didn't have a identification card yet. bcause i haven't reach 17th

but i don't understand why they still accepted me

i've been 5month worked at there

already get used to the situation. eventough everyday was very tired even for me 24hours is not enough for me because after went back from work, i need to attend the university lecture. it's damn tired

sometimes there begin at 6.15

and i went back from work at least at 6over, fiuhh. but i also be forced to attend sometimes. i usually late n can't catch the lessons

yes, sometimes i admit i ever yank out the class.

i ever went back from work at 8 over. i often feel unwell or sick after work at there

because i didn't have enough time to rest n drink  why i hold out ? bcause many ppl say there got a very good experience,  n not very easy to enter this bank.

but i never thought that 2weeks before 31december they said this bad news for me. fiuuh, what else shoukd i do :)

they apologized to me n said on october, that's is after my 18bdae i can enter there without make a job application to them, they promised. ok, so i just worked until 31december that time

i can't bear separate with my colleagues too. i miss them ! they all are very funny. every evening we always joke n laugh together. especially my head teller, she's a responsibility person. she always helped us n find a solution to us when we got problem.

ok, now temporary i'll find other job. if the job is suitable to me, maybe i don't plan to go bank to work at BCA

if it's not, maybe i'll think to work at there again.